Bad Habit

When I was younger I spent a lot of time and money trying to be like other people. I didn't think that being different from other kids was a positive and I was always trying to fit the mold. I lied about everything from where I lived to what race I was. I did whatever I could do to fit the mold.

I also put a lot of value into materialistic things. I whined and complained for months about getting a Sidekick 2. I even blogged about how much I wanted one and couldn't understand why I didn't. But here's the thing; I didn't even know what a Sidekick was! I just knew I wanted one, because everyone else had one! When I look back on things like that I am so ashamed of my behaviour.

It's kind of amazing that I didn't get into some other stuff to try and fit in. While I wanted to fit in with the kids at school, I never actually wanted to hang out with them. Doesn't make much sense does it?

Today I am a very different person. I am very comfortable in my own skin and with myself. As I've gotten older I learned to realize that I am a pretty cool person and I think it's okay for me to say that. I'm not perfect, but I accept my flaws, or try to find ways to improve them. I am perfectly content with not being the "norm". In fact I'd rather not be.

You live and you learn. It's called growing up. My mindset is different from even a few months ago. Okay, I know this is going to sound super silly and frivolous, but I learned a lot from Twilight. Not from the actually books, because vampires don't exist (or do they?). But when I first heard of Twilight it sounded so stupid to me and the more people would try to explain it to me the more shit I talked about it. Finally out of boredom I bought the damn book and now I'm addicted to the whole saga. Anyway, what I'm saying is I will no longer discriminate against books, movies, or music. I've always been open minded about things, but no longer will I knock it before I try it!

Peace & Love,
Ashley Venus