Freak Like Me

I am a virgin. Oooh.

I always wonder why people are so surprised to learn this about me. Maybe it's because I have a tendency to talk very bluntly while I am with friends? Is it because I have big boobs? Haha. Or is it because I am 19 and that's what I'm "supposed" to be doing at this age? There are a lot of things kids (yes, I said kids. I believe I still have a long way before I am able to call myself an adult) my age do that I just do not partake it.

I am not a prude. I am not a very religious person. I wasn't a sheltered child. In fact, I saw a lot growing up. I learned the consequences to certain actions while I was very young. My Grandmother had 3 daughters and my Mom is the only living child. Both of their lives ended because of drugs and AIDS. Now, my younger cousin Jason has to grow up without a Mom. He is angry and I can see that. My Mom had my older brother when she was only 16. My cousin Michael is a drug addict and everyday I see him wasting away. I saw my Dad getting high when I was only 7. My Grandfather was an alcoholic...

So, there are just certain things that I do not do, because I know better. I don't drink. I don't smoke. I don't do drugs. I know what sex does to you when you're not ready for it. I know not all sex results in an STD or pregnancy. Not everybody who drinks becomes an alcoholic. Not everyone who indulges in recreational drugs becomes a fullblown drug addict. I know that. But I've seen way too much of that stuff in my life to want any part of that.

As far as sex goes, everybody is different. Everyone has a set of morals and standards for themselves that they live their life by. I have chosen to wait.

Peace & Love,
Ashley Venus