I'll Be Your Lover Too

Wow, I almost forgot I had a bloggy blog! Happy Holiday's love! Thanksgiving was a blasty blast and now Christmas is almost here! I've spent most of today Christmas shopping, online and in my Winnie The Pooh pajama's, duh. I did venture out into the real world and got myself an early Christmas present. The T-Mobile G1 baby! I also got one for my Mom too, but she ain't getting that 'till Xmas! The phone is pretty awesome, but the pictures freakin' suuuuck!

Alright, I thought I would have enough of an attention span to write a long entry, but I really want to go back to molesting my new phone. So, I shall leave you with visual aids.

Thanksgiving

Twilight For The 30,080,979 Time

Rockefeller Christmas Tree

Baby Love

Whoo hoo I have expirenced Twilight in motion picture form and I loved it! I am so glad that they stayed true to the book and didn't add their own Hollyweird twist. However, I do wish that there had been a little bit more romance between Edward and Bella. That part was just a little rushed. And I wish they had added the scene where Bella faints in Biology! That would have been sooo funny! Other than that I really liked the movie.

God, Robert Pattinson is so damn hot! He could have been reading the phone book for two hours for all I care! Come to Mama! Lmao okay let me shut up!

Saturday

My cousin Eli threw a surprise baby shower for his wife Milly and it was so beautiful! I actually don't feel like writing anymore, so I shall leave you with some pics!

When Your Heart Stops Beating

Barack Obama is the 44th president of the United States of America. Can you believe this?! Honestly, just thinking about what this means in depth automatically starts the waterworks. I can't even begin to describe clearly how proud I am. Proud of my country, proud of my heritage, and proud of my people. Proud of every American that decided to give hope a chance.

Like I said, I can't even begin to describe how swollen my heart is with pride, love, and hope. I know it's silly, but a small part of me feels like I won too. I've never believed that as a person of color limitations existed as to what I can and can not achieve. But some people need more assurance and well now you have it! Yes we can and we did!

Now, let me tell you how my week went, because I know you're just dying to know!

Earlier this week I have succumb to peer preasure. No, no, no it's not what you think! I have give in to temptation and finally read that damn book Twilight! I bought Twilight on Monday and I just finished Eclipse. ::Sigh:: So it is save to assume that I am addicted now. When I am done with this blog I will start reading Breaking Dawn. Lord help me!

Friday

My friend Kathleen flew in from Florida for the weekend. Laura, Nicole, Kathleen and I all did lunch at one of our favorite spots, Nonna. I shouldn't be giving them a shout out, because their staff is rude, but their food is really good. It was fun, but after Kathleen polished off a bottle of wine all by herself, that was my que to leave lmao!

11- 08-08

9 years since my Aunt has passed away. Every year we go to Coney Island, my Aunt's old stomping grounds and say some prayers. We have our moment of mourning, but it's not usually a sad day. It's very rare that my brothers and I get together. My family loves to laugh and we handle grief fairly well. At least on the outside. This year my little man Aiden came along. He's the most precious little thing this earth as ever seen!

My favorite thing about Coney Island (aww, I'm going to miss it!) is the arcades! I am a beast at air hockey! Ooh man I love that freakin' game! My right arm is killing me today, because I play hard! I made my Mom record a game between Jason and I, so that I have to proof of me kicking his ass! Muwahahaha! I am trying to convince my Mom to let me replace the dining room table with an air hockey table. Wish me luck!

That's me waiting for Jason to challenge me lmao!

Love Always,

Ashley Venus

Just Dance!

I hope everybody had a super fun and safe Halloween! Yes, I was Batgirl and had I known that every other woman & child was going to be Batgirl too, I wouldn't have chose it! But it was a fun costume. I was loving my cape! I wish I could wear cape's on the regular and not have people look at me like I'm crazy!

I went with my friends Alcides and Nicole to the Village Halloween parade. I went last year and I just effin love it! We had a lot of fun, but we were missing Janey Pooh! ;)

Now I am looking through the picture galleries on the official website to see if my picture is up there. http://photos.halloween-nyc.com/ Click that link and see if you find me! I was really determined to make it on the internet this year!

::Sigh:: I thought I saw myself, but it was another Batgirl. What a slut.


Aight babes I'm peacing out this post.

Love,
Ashley Venus

Piece of Me

Obsessions: Orange Juice. There is no greater love in this universe than orange juice. True story. Music, sunglasses, lip gloss, dog's, Britney Spears, Central Park, jumping on my bed, shopping, electronics, nail polish, magazines, underwear, perfume, taking pictures, Halloween, VS Pink, socks, post it's, picture frames, wigs, candles, commas, stalking Rihanna and all her outfits, tattoos, the color pink, key chains, Barnes and Noble, stationary, mustard, Tina Fey, Sex and The City, and many many more. I have way weirder obsessions, but then I just might scare some of you.

Things that should be abolished from this planet: Animal haters, Central Park joggers, root beer, pigeons, people who litter, people who don't pick up after their dog, plain socks and underwear, House of Dereon, people who don't let me finish a sentence, collect calls, children's toy's that make noise, dog toy's that make noise, headphones that burn out only after a month, cheap bra's, men who aren't gentlemen, dust, slow walkers, orange juice from concentrate, McCain and Palin, the photo uploader on blogger, frizzy hair, long lines, people on their laptop at Starbucks, MySpace stalkers, and the list could go on and on!

I just felt like making a list of all the things I like and dislike. I probably should have put "lists" under Obsessions. Now that I've read it twice "list" seems like such an odd word. Doesn't it look weird? It's really bothering me. It's looking at me...

Anywho, I had pretty good weekend. Any weekend when I get blow some cash is a pretty awesome weekend for me. I was feeling a bit crappy on Saturday morning, so to make myself feel better, I took my Mom and I shopping. Usually I hate going shopping with my Mom, but she actually managed not to get on my nerves! Haha I know that's so mean to say, but let's be for real, shopping with the parental can be a pain in the ass. Anyway, like I said my Mom and I didn't end up arguing, and I had a really good time. Ahh maxing out my credit card never felt so good!

Speaking of shopping and credit cards, I have got to learn to manage my money and credit cards more responsibly! Now, I do have bills to pay and I always pay them on time, but it's what I'm spending my money on. I'm looking over my credit card history for the past 90 days and it's pathetic. Like, seriously I charged Jamba Juice?! Seriously, Ashley?! Did I mention that I happened to max out my credit card the day after I paid it? Oops. However, I am not a person who has buyer's remorse. Not one bit! If all my responsibilities are paid and taken care of, there is no greater satisfaction than dropping $300 on sunglasses. So, basically all I want to do is be more careful of what I use my credit card on. That's it really.

And I just went to the website of my credit card provider and now I can put my own personal picture on it! Whoop whoop!

Visual Aid:

Honey

So, today was a pretty mellow day. I finally got to sleep in for the first time in a long time. It felt good not to have to wake up until 10:30 in the morning. Haha I remember when I used to stay up until 7 in the morning and then wake up at 3 in the afternoon. I still go to sleep pretty late (around 2 in the morning on weekdays and 4 0r 5 on weekends), but I'm still up by 9. I'm pathetic.


Anywho, today I got my hair done at the new Warren Tricomi salon at the Plaza hotel, and honey it was fabulous! Please do not think that I am ballin' like that, because I am not! My friend Merima is a stylist there and she was able to pencil me for an appointment this evening. The place is great and the staff is awesome, so if you ever have an extra couple hundred bucks just lying around, go to Warren Tricomi and get the full treatment.


At first she was just going to straighten my hair, but a couple of the other stylist's started talking about how I have a great face shape, and that I should get layer's. I gotta tell ya I love my gays. Just thought I should add that. Anywayz, so I got my layer's and I think they look great. The best part is that I got hooked up for free. Yeaaah baby!


I remember when I was younger I used to hate the whole beauty process, because I just hated being fussed over. Oh man but now I absolutely love it! I've gotten increasingly girlie as I've gotten older.


So, I just wanted to share some pics of my hurr, before I have to go off to bed.


Love always and forever,
Ashley Venus

Soda Pop

That's me looking all cracked out while watching Saw 2. Scary movies aren't my thing, but My Mom sort of forced me to watch part 1 with her, and I got hooked. So far I really liked part 1 & 2 and now we're waiting for Blockbuster to ship parts 3 & 4.

(My cousin said my super cool blanket makes me look like a polar bear haha!)

I never watch scary movies, because they actually scare me! No matter how silly the movie is, if there's a crazy killer, I'm almost certain he'll be coming after me in my sleep. Seriously, all these people want to kill me! And I don't even want to hear that "it's just a movie." You know why? Because there is some sick fuck out there who actually wrote, thought, and planned out all these sick ways to kill and torture people. Ha, but I actually do enjoy a scary movie when I can bring myself to watch them.

So, that was pretty much my weekend. I stood home all day Sunday and watched movies. In addition to Saw I also watched Sex and The City, and Love Story. I'm surprised I actually liked Love Story. For some reason I thought I wouldn't. But why is it that in a love story somebody alway's has to die?!?! My God! Have we never heard of happily ever after, Hollywood?! Titanic broke my heart into tiny little pieces when Jack died, and now I go ahead and watch Love Story!

My weekend wasn't a total waste though. I did take my Goddaughter Niya out to the Children's Museum of Manhattan on Saturday. Dude, that place is so much fun! I can't wait until I have kids, but until then I guess I'll just be borrowing other people's kids for the next 10 years or so.

Back to the movie thing for a second. Why is that whenever I put a movie into my queue it's never available?! I must have REALLY good taste in movies. Sheesh.

Visual Aid:

Peace and Love,

Ashley Venus

Chasing Pavements

I hate spending a weekend at home, because I feel so unproductive, and like I wasted two perfectly good days doing nothing. But I actually managed to get a lot done in the house this weekend. Lately I've been in this super domestic mood, and whenever I see a spare chance to do some cleaning or organizing around the house, I'm right there! Very strange! Maybe my Mom is right. Maybe I am growing up. Ahh!

Turns out my Mom is right about a lot of things. We got to chatting this weekend and I guess I finally got it through my head, what she has been trying to tell me forever. You simply can not change people. People are the way that they are and nothing that I do is going to change that. Everything that I say is just going to go in one ear and out the other, because most likely they have already heard it a million times before. It's just so hard for me!

I am not one of those people who are just completely anal and wants to control everybody else's life. For the most part I just let people be. But when it comes to somebody who is very close to me and who I care a lot about, it's hard for me to bite my tongue. But it's something that I am going to have to learn how to do. Even though it pains and frustrates me to see those close to me make bad decision after bad decision, I am just going to have to learn how to shut up! :-/

Also, I'm going to stop trying to help people who are not willing to help themselves. This is very hard for me, because I care so much. It hurts me to see other people going through a hard time, but it hurts me even more when I realize those who I am trying to help, do not care about themselves as much as I do. Nothing in life is free, you have to put in hard work to get what you want, and I am not going to do that work for you. Period.

Now on to a lighter subject:

My friend Janey took pictures of her room at college and it inspired me to take some pics of my room!

This is basically where all the sleeping happens! I love the cute little decorations above my bed, especially the laugh thingy. People say that it describes me perfectly lol. I'm not really sure if you can see it, but the tiny picture frame on the shelf is of my nephew Daniel. And the thing with the sticks in between the Victoria's Secret dogs is a lavender diffuser. It helps me sleep at night. That orange stuffed animal on my pillow is a Koala Bear and her name is Kola. I sleep with it at night. Shut up. Haha I feel like this is MTV Cribs: Blog Edition!

This is my bedside table and I need all these lavender smelling things to help me sleep a little bit better at night. I suffer from a pretty bad case of Insomnia, but I refuse to take sleeping pills, so I try to do anything natural and non-addicting to help me have a rested sleep. The scent from the big candle calms me, so I sleep with it on. I also have candle's that I light when I meditate, but I didn't take a picture of them. I'm also really weird about smells, so I try to make my room smell as good as it possibly can. That's a picture of me getting ready to go Dolphin swimming in the Bahama's.

My closet door! My masterpiece! Haha, my friend Merima came over to help me paint, and that's what we ended up doing!

I'm a huge Marilyn Monroe fan, so I freaked when my Mom brought this home for me. I just freakin' love this thing! I catch myself staring at it for hours (okay, maybe not hours) just trying to take in every detail of each Polaroid. In my old room I used to have all these pictures of Marilyn Monroe and Audrey Hepburn all over the place. My cousin Jason used to call it my shrine to dead people lmao! And I just want to say that I am a real Marilyn Monroe fan. I'm not one of those people who just like her because she represents the ultimate in sex and glamour. I have tons of books on her and have seen all of her movies, okay? My Mom used to put on The Seven Year Itch for me when I was younger, so that I could sit still and be quiet. I still love that movie, but I really really love Gentlemen Prefer Blondes. It's so funny and I wish I could steal all the outfits in the movie.

I'm a pretty neat person, but this area of my room is probably the most cluttered. Actually, it's all really well organized, I just think the bulletin boards make it look cluttered. But it's an organized clutter! Haha I'm such a loser. LOL yes my screen saver still say's "I Love You Spotty!" What can I say, I still love that dog.

I must seem like the biggest narcissist, because I have pictures of myself everywhere, but where else am I supposed to put them?! This area also looks messy, but I assure you it is not! Aww, look at my books! I'm a voracious reader and feel "naked" if I'm not carrying a book on me. Right now I'm reading Audition, but it's too heavy for me to carry everday, so I'm reading it little by little. And yeah I like stuffed animals.

Isn't that the cutest picture frame?! Man I love me some Bed, Bath and Beyond! That's a photo of my best friend Linnea and I on my 19th birthday. Right after this picture she said "Omg it's almost tattoo time!" and honestly if she hadn't said that I probably wouldn't have gotten it!

This collage is right above the case where I have the photo of Linnea and I. When people come in my room they alway's stop to look at it and I hope they're thinking "Ashley has a life!" I don't, but it's nice if other people think I do haha!

The only thing missing from these pictures is a picture of Tokyo's cage. I moved him to the living room while Rocco was here and have been too lazy to move him back. So, since he was left out of the tour here is a pic of him and I:

Alright kiddies I gotta peace out,

Ashley Venus

Take Control

Since I am now sort of self-employed I have more time to do the things I thought I was going to be able to do once I got a job. Not the case. My Ex-boss wanted so much our time and nobody was willing to give it to her except for me. The other girls set boundaries and I never did. I spent a lot of time with the boss and she would complain that the others were being "difficult." I didn't want to come off as difficult so I just did as I was told. Big mistake on my part. Since I was the boss' little puppeteer who never said no it was alway's big drama when I actually did say no.

I am so happy that I am no longer working for them anymore, but I still see them everyday. I hate having to do the fake smile and small talk bullshit. Neither of us have anything to say to each other, so what's the point? Actually, I have a lot that I would like to say to them haha, but I am not. Several people have commented on my composure and maturity that I display when I do have to do the bullshit small talk. Thanks!

Anyway, now I actually have some time during the day to spend with my unofficial Goddaughter. Earlier this week I had a HUGE gap in my day, so I took Niya to a playground in Central Park. Then yesterday I went over to my friend Nicole's house and we baked cupcakes and cookies. I don't have a big sweet tooth at all, but I loooove to eat cake batter. Oh man I freakin' love it! Too bad I got SUPER sick yesterday after eating all of it. Blah I'm getting dizzy just thinking about it.

Damn it. I wanted to write more, but I really want to go outside. I hate being in the house. I'll try and update later this weekend.

I leave you with visual Aid:





Ashley Venus

One Fine Wire

These past two week have been insane! Let me start from beginning...

Polycystic Ovary Syndrome
PCOS is a hormonal disease where a woman tends to produce more male hormones than female. Which can cause a woman to stop getting her period. Blah blah blah I don't really know what it is, but what I do know is that I didn't get my period for 2 months. Major freak out on my end! I should warn you now that I can be a bit of a hypochondriac. So, I did some Google research and came up with Polycystic Ovary Syndrome. Of course that's what I have! I mean duh. So, I booked an appointment with a gynecologist just to confirm what I already knew. This was my first visit to the vajayjay doctor and talk about awkward!

Turns out I don't have PCOS and I actually did end up getting my period. So, now I'm on birth control to regulate my period. I swear if my boobs get any bigger I'm jumping off a bridge!

My Job
I got fired. I kinda called my boss a hypocritical, immature, childish, liar. The word "cunt" may have been thrown in there. I don't know. Maybe. Now, I'm not one to start yelling and calling people names, but when you refuse to pay me, you have it coming! So, I got fired for saying the truth, and to be honest I am so happy about! At first I was pissed, but when I started calling clients and some said they would still stick with me, I felt so free! No more retarded E-mails! No more "business meetings"! No more phone calls at 6 in the morning!

I know it probably sounds like I have some corporate job, which would be cool for only being 19, but I don't. I am a dog walker. Yep! You would not believe how much drama comes with this job! So, now I work for myself, and it feels so good to still be working with the same dogs.

And I just want to say thanks to my friend Nicole, who still works with my old company, for being there for me. One of my dog's needed daycare and Nicole met me early in the morning just to hangout. It was actually really nice, because the Columbus Ave. street fair was going on.

Rocco

Isn't he just the cutest?! This is the dog who needed daycare, because his Dad had "business", but it turns out he actually tried to kill himself. Crazy shit huh? So, he deemed himself an unfit parent and asked me to take care of his dog. Rocco is one of my favorite dog's, so I said yes! Listen, I know I have a Miniature Pinscher, but I don't actually lilke small dog's. I love my small dog. Big difference. I like the breeds that everybody else is afraid of. My dream dog is a Rottweiler, but a Pit Bull will do. Besides I love Rocco.

Turns out my Mom was terrified of him. She wouldn't even give me a hug if he was near me. The poor dog didn't do anything to make her that scared. She made me give him back to his previous owner. I understand that my Mom is scared of big dog's, especially of breed's that have a bad reputation attached to them like Pit's, but I'm still pissed about it! I've alway's wanted a big doggy and to me Rocco wasn't even that big. Labrador Retriever's and (stupid) Golden Retriever's are bigger.

How the hell did my blog become dedicated to dog's?! Ugh! I can't help it though, I just love those four legged creatures!

Peace & Love,

Ashley Venus